Offer of a lifetime.

It's July, and I've been given a fantastic offer by my DH to pay off what remaining debt I have for my business if I just walk away. I told him I'd think about it. But I knew, I can't. That's the thing about being an artist, its not just work, its not a means to an end. If my husband won the lotto and never had to work another day in IT security I think he'd be okay with that. If I won the lotto, I'd buy an army of cameras and travel the world. It would be great because I'd have a way to finance my work. Which is exactly what I've been trying to do. So when the calls don't come and I stress out its because I miss it. Its like when I was young - I'd meet a new guy and oh there was the crush and the great date and so much in common and ; will he call? Will this be the one? Sometimes I feel this little rush with every new client, and the disappointment when it doesn't quite work out - or worse yet you don't even get the "thanks, but no thanks" letter. Its a tough business because every lead is a potential blow to your ego, every possibility can take with it a little piece of you soul. - I think I should have gone to Med School it would have been so much easier.